Saturday, September 29, 2007

I've found this from a forum that I joined before. It does sound interesting. Got to admit that most of it is true for me. If I have the time I'll list down the numbers that are true about me. Well here it goes...


 99 Facts About Guys

1. Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.

2. Guys hate flirts.

3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.

4. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.

5. "Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten already?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.

6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

7. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.

8. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.

10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.

11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.

12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can't. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!

13. Guys cry!!

14. Don't provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.

15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.

16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.

17. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.

18. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never mind!" would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.

19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.

20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

21. When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makes any excuses when you're asking him to do yo! u a favor, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for you.

22. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow."

23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.

24. Guys hate gays!

25. Guys love their moms.

26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.

27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.

28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.

29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.

30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.

31. Like Eve, girls are guys weaknesses.

32. Guys are very open about themselves.

33. It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.

34. No guy is bad when he is courting.

35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.

36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.

37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.

41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.

42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.

43. Guys virtually brag about anything.

44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.

45. Guys think too much.

46. Guys' fantasies are unlimited.

47. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!

48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!

49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.

50. It's not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more.

51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.

52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be matured and grow up.

53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.

54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.

55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.

56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. You'll probably see that he is nervous.

57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.

58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me"

59. Guys don't really have final decisions.

60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.

61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.

62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.

63. Guys believe that there's no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.

64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

65. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.

67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.

68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.

69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!

70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

71. A guy's friend knows everything ! about him. Use this to your advantage.

72. Don't be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.

73. Don't be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you'll be surprised.

74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.

75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.

76. Guys don't comprehend the statement "Get lost" too well.

77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.

78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.

79. Guys don't care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.

80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they'll realize they're wrong.

81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He's just too stubborn to deal with it.

82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.

83. Guys' weakest point is at the knee.

84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.

85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.

86. When a guy looks at you, either he's amazed of you or he's criticizing you.

87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.

88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.

89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you're with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.

90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!

92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.

93. When a guy says he can't sleep if he doesn't hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.

94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.

95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.

96. Girls are allowed to touch boys' things. Not their hair!

97. If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.

98. Guys hate girls who overreact.

99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

posted at 2:19 PM


Sunday, September 23, 2007

Well...its been a long time since I last blog huh. Due to some problems that I've finally found out. Connection problem as usual but I've found out what caused it to occur. The crap thing is that it is caused by my downloading program known as utorrent. Haish... So if I'm downloading something using my torrent then I will have connection problems again. Guess I have to sacrifice something in order to gain something else huh... So saddening... Hehehehe...

Guess today is not my "not-so-lucky day". First thing was I was supposed to study at West Coast Park with Xiang Long and Kaile (I was the only on supposed to be revising while Kaile was supposed to be drawing trees and XL fishing). I got to admit that I did get distracted half way and joined him fishing while Kaile draws out nice pics of trees. Got to admit they are nice. While I was observing XL fishing... three girls came by to observe us instead now. I really felt the sense of discomfort (so does XL) but we didn't bother that much especially me coz fasting. Must have more self-control. YEA!! Here comes the next unlucky thing. I didn't know what I was thinking at that point of time but I tried to approach the sea water. Half way down I slipped and slided like I'm on a skateboard for awhile before falling on my butt next and still continuing to slide. I panicked a bit coz I was worried I might enter the water if I don't stop soon.

I did stop in the end but My feet had already entered. Too bad huh but thats just not enough yet. I laughed at myself for awhile and was in a blurr... Didn't what to do next. So I tried to clean my right hand (this part I seriously don't understand why I suddenly washed my hand and some more my right hand.. rather weird...) I noticed a slight sharp pain on my palm so I checked it out. I noticed a few cuts on my right palm and the pain started to grew stronger. Like WTH... if I didn't noticed maybe I won't feel it. Then, it started to bleed bit by bit. The worst thing is I thought I had broke my fast if I bleed but luckily I didn't bother to break fast yet and continue on as per normal. If someone bleed abit her fast is still on but if the bleeding doesn't stop eventhough it is a small cut... I'm afraid their fast is over. So my fast was still on. After noticing my cut, I suddenly changed slightly. I wasn't myself. My voice became more cartoonic (weird), start to talk nonsensical stuff (this is kinda usual for me xP) and other stuffs that I don't usually show others what I do.

Well... nothing much happen after that. Hang out with Kaile for awhile. Watched his skill with Bomberman, chat with him, walking aimlessly, went home (didn't know what to do next after home),break fast, admire my "battle scar" for some time (its nice to have one after such a long time). Thats all I guess for today. Jyane!!

Before I forgot. Got this from CR. Although I didn't exactly got tagged yet but since my name appeared so might as well go with the flow. Quote:

Rules of the game :
Each player of the game starts off with 10 weird things/habits of little known facts about themselves.
People who get tagged must write in their blog of their 10 weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly .
At the end of it , you must choose 6 people and list out the names .

No passing back , thank you !

Well... Let's see...
-I can laugh at anything and at nothing and even at myself
-I am gifted/cursed with this pair of gifted/accursed eyes of mine...
-I'm a person who is afraid of the outcome
-Likes what others don't like
-I sleep late usually (damn late. Like at 2AM each day)
-Used to be a damn anti-social person but now changed
-A lame joker
-Weak with girls
-Like to talk to myself if I have the time
-At times... I am afraid of girls. Really. No kidding.

People i want them to do this quiz
-CHEE KIAN!!
-Hanis
-ChaCha
-WeiJie
-Jason
-Saifullah

posted at 12:21 AM


Sunday, September 16, 2007

Okay. I tried taking this test to see if it is true and what is my true capabilities are or somewhere along that line. Here are the results...


You Scored a 95% which means you are a ....

You are a passionate lover. You are the complete package and you receive the complete package. You are NOT selfish and yet you still don't get walked all over. You're what everyone looks for and you show the opposite sex what it is like to truly be loved. Anyone who gets you is truly lucky.

What kind of lover are you
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I really don't know what to say after taking this test... I thought that I was a sincere lover but it turns out I'm better than what I myself expected of my on capabilities... Am I really that much of a person? Am I that 95% person? Am I really a passionate lover? I've heard before from my friends that are both guys and girls that they say one is lucky to have someone like me but is it true? I guess I do have it but its just not my time yet or its just that I'm out of luck or I don't have what it takes as compared to my other close friends like Ham and Lalah... Those two plus others whom I know very well are more fortunate and lucky and I do admit I envy them a lot. But nevertheless... I'll just wait and see how it goes... if there's hope... I'll go for it. But for now... I think I'll just stay as friends since thats what she wants... For all I know... I mustn't stay quiet and don't do anything coz if I do nothing... Then nothing will happen... I guess I better not show my feelings just yet... I don't want to upset her again... Hehe...... If this is best way... then I'll have to accept it coz I prefer to make others happy and smile at my own expense of my own happiness... Hehehehe...... But with this test result... I know at least my own capabilities.... *smiles* T_T gomenasai....

Thinking back at past events... When I see the things that I had done and some of the actions that I had taken... I guess I am a bit of a passionate person. I do admit that I sometime do stupid things to upset her... I do apologise but always get scolded instead apologising for no good reason (but I will apologise if I feel I had done something wrong. Its just kinda hard for me to pinpoint what I had done wrong so thats why I apologise first). I do admit that I sometimes can't recognise if my actions have hurt her or not. I am blur at times. I wish to apologise to her. I wish I can do better. I don't want to repeat the same mistakes that I had done and I wish to be forgiven... If I am given the chance... I'll try my very best to make her happy and not repeat the same mistakes... Ah crap... I can't hold my tears for that long anymore... guess I'll be tearing soon... The tears of joy perhaps? (Common la Naz... Stop lying to yourself already. Where on Earth is there a person who tears with joy at home when he's feeling down? What a weird guy I am...)

Am I asking too much? If I am... then I'm sorry... I... I... I just can't say it... I am a person who is afraid of the outcome... But if I am to be given the chance... I'll ensure that I do it rite this time round. I'll try my very best not to make her shed tears of sadness. I know it's difficult but if I'm in the wrong path... please guide me so I can cheer you up. Am I giving myself false hope? Well... thats it from tonight lover boy... guess I'll go to sleep. Sweet dreams everyone. Oyasumi and jyane...

posted at 3:34 AM


*Stretch* Haish... Just reach home from Esplanade. Quite tired. Weird huh especially when I'm fasting. It was a fun yet saddening and depressing day in the morning part only. Okay, I guess I better list down what I did from morning till 12.39AM in the morning (which is today)

Morning 15 Sept 2007

Lets see... Okay, firstly, I was suppose to go for a motivational talk yesterday morning at 10AM but I couldn't be bothered much since I do go for religious class at night in 3 different place. One of them is at my dad's friend's house. The other is at a mosque in Kembangan and the other is at Woodlands. Very far indeed but at least I go. So if my teach were to ask me next Monday I can say that to her. Back to the topic at hand... I went to meet Xiang Long at his void deck around 1PM+ and later to meet up with Kaile and Zhen Hwo. (Is this how his name being spell? I only know how to pronounce it) Its been a long time since I last met with him. Bout 1 month if I'm not wrong. Xiang Long and me headed to market first to withdraw money and went to buy food for Kaile (NOT ME HOR!! REMEMBER I'M FASTING!!). Then we had to return to his house before meeting up with Kaile in West Coast Park. We walk there soon after that. We only managed to spot Kaile alone without Zhen Hwo beside him. To my shock he's still sleeping. Can't blame him. He's too tired thats why. We did eventually met up with him and we proceed to find a place to sit and have a chat with each other. We chatted, sing and looking around the scenery. At around 3+ Kaile had to go off to make preparation for his night cycling at East Coast Park with his friends and me and Xiang Long decided to go to Funan to buy a pair of earpiece but I went home first to have a change of clothes. Can't be wearing a 3/4 pants to Funan rite? Doesn't seem appropriate to me.


Afternoon,

I met with Xiang Long at the bustop in front of the Japanese school. I saw a whole lot of Japanese students there. There were girls too!! Not just 2 to 3 of them but in groups of roughly 6 to 8 girls waiting for bus there!! But too bad I can't approach them and socialize coz I'm fasting remember... If I were to that... I'm afraid I might break my fast especially when I see them too often. Haish... a luck thrown off just like that but I'm loyal. Trying for one is already sufficient and difficult for me and thinking of trying for another is a nono for me. Hehehe... We walk around West Coast area to find buses that can take us to Funan but got trick for so many times. At first we tried to take bus 175, thinking that it will take us to Bugis but got trick. It will not take us there so we switch to take 175 at the opposite bustop behind Blue Horizon but got tricked again!! There was no 175 there to begin with!! Only bus 176!! So we had to walk back to the bustop opposite Kent Ridge Sec. Then we decided to take bus 51. Was a long trip but enjoyable since I can see the scenery outside. We reached there around 5.30PM like that. Still far from breaking fast time.

We went to Challenger first to check out for any nice and affordable earpiece but found none that is to our liking so we proceeded to Xiang Long's uncle's shop. There he found one to his liking that is a Philip Earpiece with noise cancellation for only $79.90 but to make things better... he got a further and deeper discount!! A really heavy discount. I was truly shocked when I first heard it from the counter. Then we proceeded to Suntec City to have my dinner there coz still got bout 45 mins more till breaking fast. We got lost after some time but we followed a very familiar road that leads us there. Finally!! It was breaking fast time!! I heard the call of prayer from my MP4 but still I can't find the KFC!! We searched the whole basement till we finally found it. Had our dinner there and we headed to Carefour to find some triple A batteries.


Evening

We went outside Suntec to test out the new baby. It was already 11.28PM. It really work!! It cancels off almost 75% of the surrounding noise plus the sound is damn clear. Not too mention there's bass too. Alog the way I started to flame a bit for a while. We walk towards Esplanade to take bus 106 back to my home. Arrived at Clementi around 12.10AM. I accompany him to the bustop till he took bus 282 back home. Very tiring I must admit.

I still can't believe myself that I took 14 in just one day!!!! Thats is almost one whole box lor. But I'm planning to stop but not so soon. I got things to ensure of first. If that fails then I guess I just continue on but I will not take as much as this. Never will I do that again. By the way... I can't believe I was complimented by Kaile. He said I am cute... *Shivers* I still remembered waht he told me after that word cute *shivers again*... "No wonder she falls for you sia!!" By the way the "she" he's referring to is a Jap girl I know from MSN. But don't worry. I already told her I can't go for her coz my heart prefers someone else and she understands it... Though she will not let me off that easily but giving her time will help... Sorry... Haish... the weird thing is she still wanna meet up with me when she's in Singapore. Oh well. Might as well just go and see her. If thats what she wants then I'll go ahead and make it a memorable one for her. Hehehehe... Okay... Thats it for now. Gotten waaaaay tired already. Jyane and Chao!!

posted at 12:36 AM


Friday, September 14, 2007

Its been a long time since I last blog. Damn... my results are not getting any better. Subjects that I had failed are the followings (note: I still haven't get my Geog paper but no hope la...): Maths F9, POA F9, Comb. Science F9, I think I'll also fail my Geog paper. Most prob a F9 also? Common... look at the other failing papers and you can already guess rite.

Papers that I have passed: MT B3 (no diff from O'level. I retake but scores are the same), EL C6 (just nice 50.7) and Comb. Humans C6 (I failed SS but pass Hist so added up I still pass but barely...)

With 3 passes and 4 failures... Its not helping me at all... Its only adding salt to me. My hard work for Maths and Chem is not paying off... I'm failing and keep on failing. If things continues on like this there's no way I can go to Poly nor pass my O' level wif acceptable marks... I have to be pessimistic. I think I'm staying back next year. But lets hope not. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

I've finally managed to control my emotions now thanks to people around me. M anger has subside, only left with my sadness but I rather keep it for now coz its kinda rare for me to be sad. Its been a long time since I last been sad for real. Like 2 years? Or maybe longer. But for now my decision is to continue on as usual but I will still have her in mind. I guess I'll wait for the time being and see how it goes. If I can try again then I'll go for it. If not then I guess staying as friends is better than nothing rite?

I pity a friend of mine. He's a close friend of mine. Too close until one can say we are like brothers. He now have followed my footstep which I really do not wish him to pick up. But I can't stop him. He's too depressed. Much more depressed than me but I'll try my best to comfort him. I'm still shock by what he said. How could someone thank me for giving him something negative to bring his mind somewhere else? What a evil brother I am. but for me... I'll continue on until I find the perfect reason for me to stop doing it. You must be wandering what I've been doing that is negative rite? But you should be able to guess. If not, ask me if you want to coz I won't lie to you people. I will only lie to myself plus its fasting month now so I rather not lie. Guess this is a farewell. Jyane and chao!!

posted at 7:58 PM


Tuesday, September 11, 2007

I don't know why but tonight I feel so pissed off... Too many things crammed up in my head I guess... Later will be my last paper for prelim and that is Geography paper 1. Must remember to bring goddamn string that is roughly long enough (although I doubt I'll ever use it). Then must surrender my PSP to someone... Looks like a few days of no PSP. I don't need it most of the time really coz... I don't know... All I know is I rarely ever use it to play games anymore... most probably got no mood or somewhere along that line... I won't turn back for now. I don't find a reason for me to stop just yet so I guess I'll carry on for the time being and must remember not to encourage him to take. I just hate feelings...

posted at 12:00 AM


Saturday, September 8, 2007

Today got to be one of my worst day ever!! I mean... since yesterday... I had the great depression (stomachache in other words... It suits the meaning rite? I mean depression and stomachache...) Today also I got it again... like what Yoshino would say, "This got to be the worst." By the way she's from Digimon Savers a.k.a Digimon DATA SQUAD or Digimon series 5. The show is really damn nice. Relive more childhood dreams!! DIGISOUL.... CHARGE!!!

I really feel so bad sia today... I've forgotten several important things. Let me list down both things that I had forgotten and remembered back and those that I still remember...

Forgotten but remembered back...:
1.My sis' birthday
I totally forgotten bout this one. I remembered one week before and I saw the calender just yesterday that had a label mentioning... "SIS Bday today!!" But yet I forgot bout it the very next moment... I feel so bad T_T

2.Presents!!
I forgotten to buy presents for peoples birthday!! Oh wait... there's only one person's birthday this month...? Rite? KUSO!!! I think I've forgotten bout something important again but WHAT!! AAAAAAARRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! What's wrong with me this few weeks?!

3.O' level and Prelim exams....
I can't believe I had forgotten this too!! Well... I do remember them. Its just... I forgot to study... hehe...*gulp*


I don't know why but with each passing day I feel rather... weird? No... thats not the rite word to use... I've been trying my best to deceive myself from reality but I can't help it but tearing as the days goes by. I've missed. Am I able to... never mind. All around me... almost every single person in my group are having to face obstacles in their life. Some I can't even bare to hear but I have to. Three of us now have the same fate... one of them is me... the other two I shall not mention... Plus today I received a very bad news from one of my brothers. I nearly cried. I just couldn't take it any longer. Here I was hoping for a better tomorrow for them but one by one they seem to have similar fate as me. I mean... what the hell is going on?! I don't want them to be like me. Guess that can't be avoided huh...*haish* Now one of my friends wanna try someting that I refuse to stop for now... I will not encourage him but if he really ask for one... I can't decline it coz it wouldn't be fair...

I know this one song... This song is in malay originally and it reflects me a lot. I'll try to translate it as well as possible... This song has made me teared almost every time I hear it... Use to be my favourite and I didn't know the meaning behind the lyrics at first until recently... Well here it goes...but I'll only say the starting part only...since that is the most relevant one...

Starting part
Dalam hati ini, ada nama mu
In this heart, there's your name

Nama seorang insan, yang aku rindu
A name of someone whom I miss

Dalam diri ini, ada sayang mu
Within me, there is your love

Sayangnya dirimu tidak mengerti
Its a pity that you didn't understand

Dalam senyum ini, ada tangisan
Within this smile, there's tears

Tangisan seorang insan terluka
Tears of someone that is hurt

Dalam jiwa ini, ada pilunya
Within this soul, there's sadness

Pilu yang membuat aku menangis
A sadness that made me cry

Ooohhh... hibanya...
Ooohhh... how tragic...

posted at 9:18 PM


Thursday, September 6, 2007

Here are the photos of the D-Cyber as promised...





Cool huh. I know I know... this may seem childish but who the hell care bout what others think. Unleash the Digimon within you!!


This is a picture of me holding all of the Category Spade Rouze cards in one hand. Troublesome...

posted at 1:30 PM


Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Really damn tired today. Cycled from Clementi to West Coast to Jurong to Chua Chu Kang to Kranji to Woodlands to Chua Chu Kang back and finally to Clementi. Had a few technical problems along the way back home. Leg cram, leg almost close to shutting down (this is severe. If it does shut down... I won't be able to move at all), tripping and kicking on one's own bike and many more stupid stuff I did along the way. Guess I pushed myself too much until it can't take it anymore. What a suffering it was unable to move for a while in the middle of a walkway in Chua Chu Kang area (returning home). My leg nearly shut down there. It was painful and both my legs can't even move a muscle. The moment I tried to... an added bonus of more pain is rewarded... but what I couldn't take it was it still hurts even when I am not moving at all!!

Had to walk all the way from Kranji to Jurong before I could ride my bike back... If I knew... I wouldn't had push myself above my limit too much but what can I do? I'm a very persistent person and I always wanna do better than I was before plus I didn't want Lalah to wait for me too much. That will trouble him. I wanna see what will bring my mind somewhere else... The only thing I know currently is overdoing things like this one. Pain is expected but its fun feeling the pain thru one's own body. LLIVE TO SUFFER... WAHAAA!!!!

Can't type that much for now... hands too tired... Jyane...

posted at 11:00 PM


Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Ultimate overjoyness!!!! I managed to use my D-Cyber hidden function properly! Wohoo!! Harness the ultimate power of destruction. Witness the awe of Omegamon X and Dukemon X. Relive the childhood dreams of oneself. Let none bother you. How I wish digimon really exist in this world. If they were to exist, I can go to the Digital World and live there or visit during my spare times to escape from the sufferings of the world and unnecessary human emotions. A world where creatures are created for one sole purpose... To destroy and foresee who is the strongest among themselves.

I feel sorry for every single digimon... but I can't change destiny rite? Its already their fate to keep on fighting... Just like me... fated to be like this... a pathetic, childish, unrealistic person... Always hoping for the impossible to happen... Like one person said to me before... You can't change destiny... but you can change the path that you taking... What does she mean by that?? Now I got one more thing to crack bout... tried asking to explain what she mean by that but the only thing she said was... "The time will come when u will fully understand it. Be patient." *haish* patiences again... how long more must I wait?

I'm getting more addicted with each passing moments but I can still control. But for how long.... I wanna stop but pressure prevents it... or maybe its just my refusal? Either one could be the answer but all I know for now is I need to stop before its too late to back away... But... I don't see the reason why I should stop just yet... suffering a bit more is alrite... At least it brings my mind else where... guess there's no end to it... Jyane... T_T

posted at 10:31 PM


Monday, September 3, 2007

Looks like my connectivity is currently stable for the time being but soon it may no longer be like this coz my pc will be transfer to my sis room so it may or may not be better than last time. Went to the Army Open house today with CK, Lalah, Ham, Ham's bro, Turtle and his minions (bout three of them... all same size). It was enjoyable. Half way then suddenly rain. Can consider that as a side dish for entertainment purposes. There was this LAN game that we played. Consist of 6 players. Participants were me, CK, Lalah, Ham and is bro and one more unknown kid. Turtle was no where to be found and he was the first one to leave. Pathetic rite? Leave without telling us and didn't even bother finding or tell us where he disappeared to. Even before he left he didn't inform us. The moment he was ON THE WAY HOME then he informed us. *Spit*... We headed to JP after that to have our lunch. Had our stomach full and we headed of to roam aimlessly.

Me and Lalah went of to IMM after the whole event. Around 6.40+ at that time. We went there to look around. For me I bought a D-Cyber ver. 2.0 and Lalah was looking for clothings. Later on I will show the pics of it. Now I got two D-Cybers. Wohoo... Doesn't sound satisfying rite? I also don't know why. Don't need to bother on such small matters. Next time than... Chao...

posted at 11:19 PM


Sunday, September 2, 2007

Tomorrow will be the day when the N level exams will officially begins. Good to u guyz who will be sitting for it. All the best!! o(^-^)o Don't give up till the very end.

Hmm... looks like I got nothing much to say rite now... not much improvement from what I've noticed. Got one whole week to spend on studying but none can be absorb for long... *haish* I feel so wasted. Hmm... here's a random question...

Name three things that you hate the most (not dislike. Must be more like hatred) and why.

1. Myself
I hate myself quite a lot. One is for being weak. The other is... how to say this... born as a failure I guess. Hehehehe... Well if looking on the optimistic way... being a failure isn't that bad rite? I mean at least I know what I am. The other one is me having this pathetic, idiotic and rather ridiculous emotions!! Maybe the reasons below will help explain more...

2. My Emotions
Well I really hate emotions and feelings a lot coz they affects me much. Like let's say I'm happy. I'll be smiling and hype up quite a bit and when I'm suddenly angry or down... people around me will be much affected too.
The real emotion I hate is... hmm... Its not hate but more to "I don't really need it anymore" kind of feeling and that emotion is LOVE. Come' on. Without it I can do a lot of things without having to be bothered by such matters like for example liking someone then getting your own feelings hurt in the process coz the other party just doesn't like you or they are just using you for their own benefits or your progress was somehow how going well then suddenly there was a fuck'd up problem that your whole "perfect" ideas were instantly demolished in a blink of an eye. I mean if I don't have this feeling I can easy go with the flow of life without me having to waste my "precious" time on such wasteful matters rite?

3. My expression
My expression... I do hate it a lot. What I hate bout it is my face is usually those angry type of face so people will find it hard to approach me. The other thing is I'm not good at hiding things using my face. People around me can guess that I'm hiding something and saying "Its obvious. U can't hide it. Your face says it all".
I'm trying my best to hide it and acting up but still people can see through it. Its hard you know. Some say just be normal but if I do that then I'll be 24/7 in depression face or angered face. I don't think they will like it if that happens....


Now that you have chosen three things that you hate the most, imagine yourself not having them in our life at all. What do you thing will happen? Do you still want it to disappear if you are given the choice to?

1. If I were not to have myself then I would die in the process... my existence is no longer needed. I rather carry on with myself intact.

2. If I were to lose this emotion... then I won't be able to love again... Thats a good and bad thing. The good thing is I won't be bothered to liking someone and wasting myself but the bad thing is I will lose something precious in my life. An emotion that keeps one's alive and looking forward to a new future. An emotion that brings people together. A feeling that makes you closer to people and the feeling of having someone to be loving you. This applies to every aspects of life. Family, friends and someone whom you dear the the most...

I'd rather keep it even though I'll be hurt in the process. At least I am still able to love someone and that would be quite sufficient for me to carry on a bit though that person may or may not like me. I'm fine with it for a while. Let me be in my own fantasy that will only happen in dreams of one who cannot achieve such things in life... Hehehehe...

3. Not having expressions would be deadly to me coz people will avoid me even more coz I'm lifeless in the face of others. So I rather keep it and try to better my act next time around.

Guess all this is important to me although to me it seems rather useless. Rather more considered as a setback to me. Really. I'm keeping them for others around me. To make them happy is good enough. Like I said before... I LIVE TO SUFFER.

Guess thats it for now... Jyane and chao....

posted at 9:47 PM


Saturday, September 1, 2007

...Totally tired already. Although now is morning but just feeling tired again. Just finished my paper 2 prelims and most of the paper 1s. Only a few more left and I'll be done with the prelims for a while before O' level begins. Still got a few more weeks to prepare. It's close but I don't see myself studying much... Totally lost concentration, motivation and the will to study anymore... At this rate... if things continues on like this... the possibility of me failing is damn high, especially Maths and Chemistry...

GOOD LUCK TO ALL WHO ARE SITTING FOR THEIR N' LEVEL EXAMS THIS WEEK. DO YOUR BEST PEOPLE!!!

I finally got a new nick...not exactly new huh coz I obtain that nick during Sec1 once before but ppl do tend to forget. Yesterday the school celebrated Teachers' Day and Be Yourself Day. Wasn't that interesting except for the part where CR got picked out and being in the top 10 in Kent Ridge. Headed to Vivo after our prayers. Went to the most favourite lace of all and that is Toys "R" Us Departmental store!! Well I was actually looking for Tamagotchi Connection ver. 4 and 4.5. They may appear childish to others but to me they are fun to play with. Since when I was a kid I already like virtual pets such as Tamagotchi and Digimon. They are the closes friend I had ever had if I am alone. To make things worst... I still haven't yet bought any presents plus the birthdays are drawing near!!! Hopefully my sis won't get angry if I get it for her slightly late. Wonder who else the birthday falls on September... guess no one else but my sis.

I'm in worst of luck this November... A friend of mine from Japan is coming here for a vacation and to make things worst... she wanna meet up with me but I don't wanna to... She's does type of girls...err... how should I say this...pervertic type of girl. Thats why I don't wanna meet with her coz I know her capabilities (I experienced it myself) but since its a girls' request... guess I can't refuse it. Hopefully nothing will happen but the chances are there... since both are perverts so what will happen if the two meets? Anything can happen but I shall control myself. Must remember to stay loyal and don't go overboard... Loyal?? Since when do I need o be loyal to anyone? Oooohhhhh... I get it. Let's see... how long will she be here? Trying to remember...1 to 1 week and 3 days. Thats what she say with rough estimation... Luckily she's coming over with her parents and not alone... oh wait... SHIT!! I gave her my no. to contact me when she reach here! Oh well... guess I can't escape huh... Just remember to keep my hands to myself at all times. Same thing applies to her. Must remind her the next time shes online.

Well guess thats it for now. Jyane and chao... O(^-^)O
[Sadness is overwhelming... A trickery in a smile is what I use to play pranks in ppls mind. Am I alrite? Only god knows]

posted at 6:53 AM