Friday, September 14, 2007

Its been a long time since I last blog. Damn... my results are not getting any better. Subjects that I had failed are the followings (note: I still haven't get my Geog paper but no hope la...): Maths F9, POA F9, Comb. Science F9, I think I'll also fail my Geog paper. Most prob a F9 also? Common... look at the other failing papers and you can already guess rite.

Papers that I have passed: MT B3 (no diff from O'level. I retake but scores are the same), EL C6 (just nice 50.7) and Comb. Humans C6 (I failed SS but pass Hist so added up I still pass but barely...)

With 3 passes and 4 failures... Its not helping me at all... Its only adding salt to me. My hard work for Maths and Chem is not paying off... I'm failing and keep on failing. If things continues on like this there's no way I can go to Poly nor pass my O' level wif acceptable marks... I have to be pessimistic. I think I'm staying back next year. But lets hope not. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

I've finally managed to control my emotions now thanks to people around me. M anger has subside, only left with my sadness but I rather keep it for now coz its kinda rare for me to be sad. Its been a long time since I last been sad for real. Like 2 years? Or maybe longer. But for now my decision is to continue on as usual but I will still have her in mind. I guess I'll wait for the time being and see how it goes. If I can try again then I'll go for it. If not then I guess staying as friends is better than nothing rite?

I pity a friend of mine. He's a close friend of mine. Too close until one can say we are like brothers. He now have followed my footstep which I really do not wish him to pick up. But I can't stop him. He's too depressed. Much more depressed than me but I'll try my best to comfort him. I'm still shock by what he said. How could someone thank me for giving him something negative to bring his mind somewhere else? What a evil brother I am. but for me... I'll continue on until I find the perfect reason for me to stop doing it. You must be wandering what I've been doing that is negative rite? But you should be able to guess. If not, ask me if you want to coz I won't lie to you people. I will only lie to myself plus its fasting month now so I rather not lie. Guess this is a farewell. Jyane and chao!!

posted at 7:58 PM