Saturday, September 8, 2007

Today got to be one of my worst day ever!! I mean... since yesterday... I had the great depression (stomachache in other words... It suits the meaning rite? I mean depression and stomachache...) Today also I got it again... like what Yoshino would say, "This got to be the worst." By the way she's from Digimon Savers a.k.a Digimon DATA SQUAD or Digimon series 5. The show is really damn nice. Relive more childhood dreams!! DIGISOUL.... CHARGE!!!

I really feel so bad sia today... I've forgotten several important things. Let me list down both things that I had forgotten and remembered back and those that I still remember...

Forgotten but remembered back...:
1.My sis' birthday
I totally forgotten bout this one. I remembered one week before and I saw the calender just yesterday that had a label mentioning... "SIS Bday today!!" But yet I forgot bout it the very next moment... I feel so bad T_T

2.Presents!!
I forgotten to buy presents for peoples birthday!! Oh wait... there's only one person's birthday this month...? Rite? KUSO!!! I think I've forgotten bout something important again but WHAT!! AAAAAAARRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! What's wrong with me this few weeks?!

3.O' level and Prelim exams....
I can't believe I had forgotten this too!! Well... I do remember them. Its just... I forgot to study... hehe...*gulp*


I don't know why but with each passing day I feel rather... weird? No... thats not the rite word to use... I've been trying my best to deceive myself from reality but I can't help it but tearing as the days goes by. I've missed. Am I able to... never mind. All around me... almost every single person in my group are having to face obstacles in their life. Some I can't even bare to hear but I have to. Three of us now have the same fate... one of them is me... the other two I shall not mention... Plus today I received a very bad news from one of my brothers. I nearly cried. I just couldn't take it any longer. Here I was hoping for a better tomorrow for them but one by one they seem to have similar fate as me. I mean... what the hell is going on?! I don't want them to be like me. Guess that can't be avoided huh...*haish* Now one of my friends wanna try someting that I refuse to stop for now... I will not encourage him but if he really ask for one... I can't decline it coz it wouldn't be fair...

I know this one song... This song is in malay originally and it reflects me a lot. I'll try to translate it as well as possible... This song has made me teared almost every time I hear it... Use to be my favourite and I didn't know the meaning behind the lyrics at first until recently... Well here it goes...but I'll only say the starting part only...since that is the most relevant one...

Starting part
Dalam hati ini, ada nama mu
In this heart, there's your name

Nama seorang insan, yang aku rindu
A name of someone whom I miss

Dalam diri ini, ada sayang mu
Within me, there is your love

Sayangnya dirimu tidak mengerti
Its a pity that you didn't understand

Dalam senyum ini, ada tangisan
Within this smile, there's tears

Tangisan seorang insan terluka
Tears of someone that is hurt

Dalam jiwa ini, ada pilunya
Within this soul, there's sadness

Pilu yang membuat aku menangis
A sadness that made me cry

Ooohhh... hibanya...
Ooohhh... how tragic...

posted at 9:18 PM