Its 12.45AM now and I'm currently unable to sleep. Something is bothering me right now. No no... It isn't a ghost so don't be scared.
Today we celebrated our first anniversary of 6 months of friendship. We had dinner at Lemongrass. I think thats the place if I remember correctly (I tend to forget minor things just like what Reece said to me today... A very forgetful onii-chan). The restaurant is quite fancy to me that is. So I felt nervous and shy (thats the weird part!!! How can I be shy?! If nervous is alrite but shy? That doesn't sound right, rite?) We ate and as usual... me and Lalah were the few people who ate the least but I WAS THE ONE who got LABELED as the PERSON who ate THE LEAST among the two of US. Can't blame me nyaa. I'm not used to such fanciful places. We joked around while eating and we left after we were all done but had to return for someone had left a ring. Once that's done we headed to Vivo to catch a movie, The Game Plan. The movie was great. Lalah and me both agreed on that but her? I ain't so sure. Forgot to ask. Then we headed back home. Oh yea... before I forget again. Someone had a problem with the zipper on his pants. Hehehe.... Can't really laugh though coz you know why? Coz in the bus I had the same emotional state as Lalah. He was stressed out due to that zipper of his while me... I had a headache... @_@
You know... the human heart is very complex (not the heart that pumps blood. That one is complex too but I'm talking bout a diff version of the heart). But mine isn't just complex alone. Its stubborn too. This may sound weird but I can't seem to control or change certain things that my heart is telling me. Not that it is influencing me negatively (the heart doesn't influence us negatively. Our own thinking and is what makes us become negative. The heart just helps us to love something or someone and cherish it a lot) but positively yet annoying at times. The annoying part is like it tells me the same thing over and over again while I'm not responding to it. Want me to give an example? Nah. For that you can ask personally thugh you can't do it coz you are just a computer niiya!!! Hehehehe... Ok ok... I'm idioting myself... -_-'
The heart's will power sometimes can surpass that of its master like for example, pine. Oh wait... Wrongly type. Not pine but mine (lazy to erase). Once the heart as set its heart onto something... it can be hard to change it (confusing @_@). As an example, this is just example only so take careful note with the word "just as an example", I love kitten (koneko) but most of the time I don't think bout kitten that often. But instead I keep thinking of my aunt. Remember. This is only an example and I don't think of my aunt at all nor kitten. So don't go around thinking I love my aunt nor kittens to that extreme nyaa.
To tell you the truth... I feel rather depressed plus a sense of regret in the bus on the way home and currently. I got bullied again today!! This is so heartbreaking nyaa. Not really heartbreaking but rather... saddening nyaa? T-T so sad!!! They may win yesterday (its 1.39AM already) but I'll win today or tomorrow for sure!! *Peek through the window* Its raining... Looks like Gaia is crying... Just kidding XP
Here's a lyric to one of the songs of mine that have a deeper meaning if you listen and read carefully...
Picture Perfect
All the time that you were standing by my side She's that picture perfect kind I can't believe i was so blind Do you remember the time You know i stepped across that line I made you cry and that's my crime I wish that i could just rewind
It's the evening, and you've been complaining About our situation and all my deceiving I know that everything is going slow And if you want to feel better I can tell you that it's going to be great Yeah it's going to be good Oh! but i would be lying to you
But these days, i'm changing Meeting new faces Now how am i supposed to be? My feelings for you seem to be changing Looking back don't look back on me
All the time that you were standing by my side She's that picture perfect kind I can't believe i was so blind Do you remember the time You know i stepped across that line I made you cry and that's my crime I wish that i could just rewind
(rap) Inakute mo ii i wanted to be free Inaku natte mo ii i wanted her to leave It's kind of hard to see ... when the world tunnel-visioned me Motometeta ai no katachi They say believe in what you can't see Demo mawari no candy ga sweet de hard to think Atama de wa comprehend shite mo koudou ni utsuse n My eyes on the rikutsu, the truth's here listen Chase shite mo chase shite mo things keep fleeting Henna yumemite ta i must have been sleeping Tooku samayou maeni chikaku wo seek it Yoku mite mireba kokoro ni wa beacon Of light sashite, sagashite ta thing's here Omotta yori near, close to your hemisphere Imade wa clear 20/20 cuz i'mma share Subete and i don't care if they think i'm weird There there nobody thinks you're weird Ya see, i've been through it all before
And the same thing happened to me Kinishi nai "wounds heal with time" But in the meanwhile... I'll show what i mean Let's think of it another way Everything we do and say defines who we are As we live out each day What we did was wrong at the time But it helps us go back and rewind It's a mistake but it ain't no crime Kasanariau no sa tsumari sore ga ai
All the time that you were standing by my side She's that picture perfect kind I can't believe i was so blind Do you remember the time You know i stepped across that line I made you cry and that's my crime I wish that i could just rewind
I said goodbye I didn't know that it would all turn out this way But now i know i realise And i can learn from my mistakes
But these days, i'm changing Meeting new faces Now how am i supposed to be? My feelings for you seem to be changing Looking back don't look back on me
All the time that you were standing by my side She's that picture perfect kind I can't believe i was so blind Do you remember the time You know i stepped across that line I made you cry and that's my crime I wish that i could just rewind...
Today will be my last paper. Guess this a temporary goodbye. Sayounara. Chao!!
