Saturday, February 14, 2009

Happy Valentines Day dear friend!! Hehe...how are you feeling? Great? Thats good. I tot of droppin by for a while to accompany you and share some thought that's in my mind currently. This valentines day somehow have opened my eyes and made me see the importance of the people in my life. Be it my family, my friends and my baby girl. How important it is to treat them with respect and friendliness and not take things for granted or with much anger. I am sorry for all my past mistakes to all my friends and I don't mind if I am not forgiven or given another chance to redeem myself because I do make the same mistakes sometimes. I'm thinkin of going around to meet my friends later on if they are not busy to really explain to them how much they mean to me and I'm sorry for all my wrong doings in the past and not so past no mater where they may be today.

Why am I going through all this trouble just to explain myself and apologise? Well...one reason is to show that no matter the distance or obstacles that I may face later, I am willing to seek them to apologise and ready for them when they need me anytime as a thanks for being so patient with me and being my friend or being someone special to me. The other reason is to show my sincerest feeling to all of them. To show them that I'm willing to change for the better and the best for their happiness and also, for my angel's happiness too.

I've made life difficult for many peolpe but most of is to my mum and my baby. They were so patient to me. Always there for me and forgivin my mistakes even if I repeated them without knowin but I didn't reply it with kindness at times and at times I took for granted and never really consider the trouble I've caused them and their feelings deep down. The stress that I've given them all this time...an apology alone isn't even. Not even a thousand years of apology is enough to show them that I'm really sorry for all the things I've done.

Somehow I've been abusing the use of apologisin too. Keepin on sayin sorry each time I did something wrong. HOnestly I wanted to do more to ease their pain. More than just apologising. A gift isn't enough too. What can I do to show my appreciation to them and that I really care for them and I'm willing to do anything to get her back if things goes wrong? I wanted to seek help from others but I can't face them now after all I've done to them like scolding them, being harsh to all of my precious friends around me. I am one of those pathetic guys out there but even so I've realise my mistakes. Will my friends ever forgive me? Will my mum be happy that I know that I've realise my mistakes and willing to go an extra mile to redeem myself and that everyone is always important to me in my heart and soul? Will my baby ever forgive me this time? Will I ever get her to accept me and that I'm going to change for the better right now? Will I ever get my angel back into my arms, into my heart? Will God forgive me for all the wrong doings that I've done to His greatest gift that is my baby? Will He accept me apology and my admits and give me a second chance to correct myself to very single one of my friends, family and my baby?

God,will you forgive me and give me another chance to amend my mistakes? Mum,will you forgive me? Guys and girls, I'm truely sorry and well aware that apologisin may not help and I'm willing to do anythin to ease all the pain I've done. Baby Girl, will you forgive me for being self-centred at times and idiot on another time? Will you give me another chance for me to correct myself and prove to you that I'm really,truely and honestly love you and that I'm willing to change to make you happy? Will you love me still? Can I amend my mistakes that I've done to you and ease your pain? Can you guide me along the way as I grow with you? I am so sorry baby! Everyone, I'm truely in your debt and I'm really sorry! I don't blame you guys if you all of you are going to have doubts in me but I will and must do my best to amend my mistakes and bring joy to everyone! This is a promise made to my heart and to everyone! Please, please everyone, please stay with me in my heart and guide me! I won't be angry if you guys don't want to because I've realised what I had done to make you guys choose that decision and I'll be happy with.

I'm sorry to have put everyone under this pressure and difficult time. I'm not going to force anyone and I appreciate if everyone can feel at ease and make a decision. I will be happy for all of you and the decisions that you've have made no matter how long it takes. Lastly, I am grateful to all my friends (Lalah, Yat, Kai, Kel, Chick, Hamster, Thac, Hailmi, Shah, Khai, Es and Daniel), my family (mum, dad and sis) and to my special someone (my dear baby girl and my angel of my heart) for being there for me and being so patiet. Even my tears that are rolling down now isn't enough to recover the hurtful feelings that all of you have gone through. I deeply regret my actions and I'm going to change and amend those mistakes even if it is too late for me in some people's heart. I am grateful to everyone. ARIGATOU GOZAIMASU!!! THANK YOU EVERYONE!!! PLEASE, FORGIVE MY ACTIONS AND GIVE ME ANOTHER CHANCE AND BE WITH ME AS A FRIEND, A FAMILY AND AS MY LOVER! I AM REALLY SORRY!!!


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posted at 1:23 PM