Went out to meet my saviours for a little while. My saviours are Kai and Kel. Met up with them for a short while with hopes that by talkin to them, my mind will be at ease but it just seem to not help much. I'm still feeling low... I've tried listenin to songs, go out and talk to my brothers and even eatin (but sadly, I couldn't finish my food but I force myself to and just now I threw up). Nothin seems to work for long. It's like there's somethin stuck in my mind but it just refuses to move and chokes up everythin like a drain being cloak up with stuffs. Preventin water from flowin. Maybe, it wasn't my two brothers that I wanted to talk to or meet. It's just a maybe.