Monday, June 1, 2009

Yosh, friend. It's bout 4 minutes more to 3 and I am still not sleepin yet. Can say that I can't sleep yet at the moment. Been thinkin bout a bunch of stuffs. Rangin from those school to Kamen Rider Henshin Belts. Hehe... Yea, I've been thinkin of gettin one for a very long time now so if I have the money, I'll get one if I can find those that I want. Let's see... I want a Kabuto zector, Den-O belt and maybe a Blade one too but I'm thinkin of completin a Den-O belt set but the price is like... 500+ in total? Not to mention that they are hard to find now. Why I want to get it? Just for fun. Bringin it along with me anywhere I go and just play with it. Henshin!! Cast off!! Hehe...

Went out with Yat yesterday to accompany him shoppin for some clothes. Walkedaround here and there. Went to Suntec, Peni and Chinatown area. Man!! It's been quite some time since I last been to those figurine shops that I was sooooo excited that I walked around and talked to one person whom I mistaken for Yat!! Hehe... but first on my list will be a pair of headphone from Audiotechnica. Next will be a few sets of clothin. I mentioned to my mum that I wanted to buy a pair of skinny jean and both my mum and sis gave me the blood shot look directly to me! I've never seen them like that before... It really scares the crap out of me... So far there is only one person tht is able to do that but now I have to add my mum into the list. But the scariest is that first person one. It pierces right through my soul. *Shivers*

Gah.... It's already 3.09am now and I don't even feel the slightest sleepiness... crap man... If only I can have an amnesia for a short period of time. Maybe around one month like that kind. Well.... at least I don't have to think bout so many things. My mind is like flooded with so many stuffs, mix of regrets, joy and sadness... Haish... but then again, if I were to have an amnesia, it will only make me feel worst. Not knowin who I am, why am I here, who are those people aroound me, the emptiness in my mind, forgettin the person that I really care for, the missin memories of my brothers, family and loved ones... that's worst than havin them. I'm glad that I still have my sweet memories. But for my heart, I wish that it can be more than just memories...

I'm kinda worried for one of my brother. I shall not mention his name as that is not necessary. He is in a state that worries me. But I just that he will be doin fine. Although I may seem like a blur and quiet person, I am observant. I may not see every thing but for those that I am aware of, will worry me. But I will help those that I can in my own "blur blur" kind of ways. Be it being there to listen to that of sacrificin my time, energy and soul for that person. Because you are all like a family to me..... Hehehe.. gomen gomen... there I go again with my random talk. I'll be accompanyin Cheep Cheep to sleep for a while now but I don't think that I might be able to sleep.

I guess I'll end it here. See you some other time...
I feel as though that I am like a child that have lost his mother in a busy crowd. Cryin but not a single soul notice. Wonderin around in search of his mother, he longs for her company...

posted at 2:56 AM