Thursday, November 5, 2009

HHHHHEEEEEELLLLLLLLOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ZZZZAAAAANNNNZZZZZAAAAANNNN!!!! I'm finally back online again and this time it will be permanent too!! Good rite? Hehehehehe.... Gosh.... There's quite a number that I wanna tell you but I doubt that I am able to say i all ^^. So I shall start with the positive ones first! Hehe... now, where shall I begin first? Let's see... I'm now officially living in my new house. It's comfortable and cozy too. I'm waitin for Saturday to come so that this house will be filled with my old furnitures so it will look complete ^^v

Hehe.. next, I get this feeling that my house will soon become like a hightech home. Well, my dad seems to want to make everythin that has to do with computer stuff to go wireless. Cool huh? But there are a few disadvantages here and there but he knows bout it so I do hope he will have some solutions to that. Hmm.. what's next...? Ah! By the end of this month or the next, I will have a new gamin console joinin my family ^^v hehe.. And that person is a PS3. Once I receive it, I'll inform you bout it alrite? Hehe!!!

Once Saturday comes, I'll be able to go online like usually. For the time being, I'm usin my dad's CPU so yea, I don't really prefer usin other people's items. Eh? Suddenly like got nothin more that is of a good news to say. Hmm... I'll try to remember them and tell you again when I remember it coz this little cheepy here is distractin me a little. Oh btw, I MISS YOU ALL GUYS!!!!!!!!! HEHEHEHE!! SO DOES THIS LITTLE CHEEP CHEEP TOO!!!

I feel... proud and happy that I know that I am helpin others around me all this while. Do u hav dreams Zanzan? What is ur dream? Me? Hehe.. I don't wanna say it. It's totally embarassin and stupid too. Hehe.. Nono. It has nothin to do with future occupation. *Peace* Though my dream is somethin like what Director Lazard once said to Zack in FFVII CC. "Unattainable dreams are the best kind". Hehe....for bad news wise... I truely have one only but.... I don't really wish tell you just yet coz... I don't want u be upset, angry, happy or laugh at me. I've told 4 people bout it and everyone seems to be affected by it negatively... Eswaran was upset with me coz I spoke too lightly of it like it doesn't mean a thing to anyone that is dear to me. Crystal is like in a state of shock that kind rite now and she's buggin me everytime she's free just to tell me to be extra careful and to take care of myself more. Kai now seems to be a little depress over what I said and now I feel bad for tellin him in the first place and lastly, Wani. I did not intend on telling her anythin but then she notice a sudden weird behaviour of mine whenever I'm outside and that is keep on touchin my forehead once in a while with a "cramp" face.

I didn't tell her directly. She was the one that guessed it and I told he the truth the moment she was close to the answer. But te thing that makes not wantin to tell u just yet is that I made someone cried due to that news.... Don't worry, when the time comes, I'll inform you. Really, though I only have like... 3 years before things gets worst.... It's bout my health actually. I'll stop until here coz of my own selfish reasons. I don't want to hinder anyone's life for the time being coz everyone is busy so once they are free or somethin then I'll inform them but... It's very difficult for me to tell it to my brothers... if it is to that person... it's more like impossible to me....

Well!! Enough with the unfinished, depressin little matter. at least now I'm able to go online again and connect with those I'm close with once again. Once tomorrow comes, stress will take over me again in school (only in school) and it's another day of torment for me too coz of the headache that I have to go thru each day. It's more like a headpain rather than a headache. I cout myself lucky if there's a day that the hadpain does not come. Hehe... though that hardly happens. Ookok... I'll stop here for now. See ya!

posted at 7:08 PM