Sunday, November 8, 2009

Yosh!! Finally, all my stuffs has been moved here, to my new house but we still have not completely clear up the boxes. There's just too many to clear in one go. Hehe... Early in the mornin my mum disturbed me alreadie. This was what she said in the mornin when I was gettin readie to leave my house to go to my aunt's house at West Coast.

"You know, I bump onto our neighbour, the one near the staircase there. She's very polite and friendly. And she seems to be your dear brother's type. Almost same age too. Guess soon we will a new family member already." That's what my mum "whispered" to my sis in a loud voice in the kitchen. Hehehe... mum mum... seriously, she has nothin better to do sia. Disturbin is one of her home hobbies. I nearly fainted at home due to exhaustion. Hehehe.. Can say overwork la huh.

I was helpin my Uncles and Dad carryin things from one house to lorry and the next house and back to the lorry and finally to my house but when I was carryin the remainin half back to my home, I realise that I can't carry anymore and I really need a rest but seein how hard my Dad and Uncles carried the remainin boxes and furnitures, I decided to ignore my fatigue and ease their work load. With like 15 more items to go, I sat flat on the floor at my home to rest for a while and my mum realise how exhausted I was so she kept me away from helpin them. I didn't really like the idea of havin my mum, sis and my aunt to help carry the heavy stuffs so I just got back up with my sister's help and continued on while my mum blocked the gate for a short while and moved away after seein my determined expression.

The heaviest object that I carried alone was around 70+kg. It's my home washing machine and now, my back hurts like hell. Not to mention my brain...after the whole moving thingy, I txted a few people tellin them that I am done wif the work and plannin to rest for a while but the actual truth was that I passed out in my sis room, on the floor. I didn't faint for that long. Only for like, less than an hour or so? Hehe... Don't worry, I'm a very persistant person who likes to help. My mum spoke to my Dad a while ago, tellin him that she notice that I am no longer as capable as I once was. I get tired easily and that I kept on havin frequent headaches. I guess my mum will know the whole story soon.... I just hope she will be ok once she finds it out from me or my Dad but we both are not plannin to tell her just yet coz I told my Dad that I want everyone to be happy and comfortable with this house first.

Once they are comfortable then I'll inform my mum and sis of my real condition. The other reason why I don't wanna say it to anyone just yet is because I feel that I will be a burden to them after they came to know it. Hehe... I'll keep on goin for appointments without my mum knowing it first. Right now, the most important thing to me is to make everyone that I know happy and smile from the bottom of their heart but.... it's difficlut for me to keep up with that promise coz I am no longer that strong plus at times, I give them those looks that makes them notice that I am not feeling well. I just hope I'll be alright on the day that the old group is goin to celebrate our birthdays together and I hope that everyone will be able to make it coz it's a once a year thing and like what Lalah said, "for those that can't make it for any invalid reasons, that just shows just how much that person really feels for us."

Talk bout birthdays... like what I once mentioned to Kai, I wish that my birthday will just not come coz I'm afraid of it.... to me, it's like... one year less for me or one year as been strike off... Hehe... Gomen gomen!!! Sorry if I am scarin u Zanzan. I didn't mean to scare u. I'll stop here for now.

posted at 12:25 AM