Honestly speaking, I don't really have much to tell you bout Zanzan. If I may, I want to talk a little bout streetfest. Honestly, I owe both of them more than just an apology, especially to wifey.. I owe her not only my oath but also, an action. I feel so bad and lost... I don't even know how to make it up to her. That day has scar her mind of what I did into her heart and mind... I ignored her most of the time and all were accidental but, there is no excuses for that. I feel like, I may be intelligent in somethin but I'm also retarded on the other... I failed to keep my promise and my apology.... God, even if I pray to you, will her pain go away? I don't want to be forgiven for that... I just don't feel that I deserve that forgiveness from her for this situation... I'm really sorry..