Sunday, August 1, 2010
Yesterday was.... like the most depressing day for both of us.... why? Well... I've made her sad upset once again.... I didn't something that... most couples would do and I don't blame her for feeling like that.... Fault does goes to me, no matter the reason... no wonder some teachers and some relatives of mine sees me as someone really stupid, slow and a moron... but thats alright. Really. I know myself too well and I accept this fact of my side... There is one more side that many don't know and that is, I am a coward. Not physically but it's what I say is my strength which is words.
But, am I entirely that useless? Haha... look at me, asking you this kind of questions... Haha. Sorry Zanzan. sometimes a guy needs to say a few things out you know but in a neutral manner. Poor, average, stupid, enough and sick... this words rings in my mind... louder and louder as I become empty. Each time I look in the mirror, I see only a figure that hurts that one person and one that is of all talk and empty...
I feel so... lonely... so so lonely... and so cold... my warmth... I don't want it to fade away... I don't want to lose those warm hands that embraces me... please don't... please...
posted at 12:39 AM
