Saturday, November 20, 2010

Picture Perfect by Monkey Majik.

It is a song that I've wanted to dedicate to her. Though it is too late but, here is my song for you.

Lyrics (translated):

All the time that you were standing by my side
She's that picture perfect kind
I can't believe i was so blind
Do you remember the time
You know I stepped across that line
I made you cry and that's my crime
I wish that I could just rewind

It's the evening, and you've been complaining
About our situations and all my deceiving
I know that everything is going slow
And if you want to feel better
I can tell you that it's going to be great
Yeah it's going to be good
Oh! but I would be lying to you

But these days, I'm changing
Meeting new faces
How am I supposed to be?
And my feelings for you seem to be changing
Looking back, don't look back on me

All the time that you were standing by my side
She's that picture perfect kind
I can't believe I was so blind
Do you remember the time
You know I stepped across that line
I made you cry and that's my crime
I wish that I could just rewind

I don't care if she's here,i wanted to be free
I don't care if she leaves,i wanted her to leave
It's kind of hard to see...when the world tunnel-visioned me
The shape of love i was longing for
They say believe in what you can't see
But the candy around me is so sweet it's hard to think
In my head i comprehend but i can't put it into actions
My eyes on the reason,the truth's here listen
Though i chase and chase ,things keep fleeting
I had a weird dream,i must have been sleeping
Before i drift far away,i've got to seek it nearby
If i look closely,there's a beacon in my heart
Of light shining,the thing i was searching for is here
Nearer than i thought,close to your hemisphere
Now it's clear twenty/twenty cuz I'mmma share
Everything and i don't care if they think i'm weird
There there nobody thinks you're weird
Ya see,i've been through it all before

And the same thing happened to me
I don't care,"wounds heal with time"
But in the meanwhile...
I'll show what I mean
Let's think of it another way
Everything we do and say defines who we are
As we live out each day
What we did was wrong at the time
But it helps us go back and rewind
It's a mistake but it ain't no crime
Our bodies together,that's love


All the time that you were standing by my side
She's that picture perfect kind
I can't believe I was so blind
Do you remember the time
You know I stepped across that line
I made you cry and that's my crime
I wish that I could just rewind

I said goodbye
I didn't know that it would all turn out this way
But now I know I realise
And I can learn from my mistakes

But these days, I'm changing
Meeting new faces
How am I supposed to be?
And my feelings for you seem to be changing
Looking back, don't look back on me

All the time that you were standing by my side
She's that picture perfect kind
I can't believe I was so blind
Do you remember the time
You know I stepped across that line
I made you cry and that's my crime
I wish that I could just rewind...

posted at 11:28 AM


Ong Jin... God... forgive me... forgive me.... forgive.. me...

posted at 10:26 AM


Zanzan! Please help me! I'm losing her! I'm losing her due to my fault... I couldn't defend her and I only made matters worst with the wrong choice of words and without properly elaborating them... but I don't wish to lose her! She's my angel... My goddess... someone I look up to for support and strength... she someone prefer in my eyes. But... all that... wil be all gone soon...I can't take this pressure.. the only thing that is in my mind is, "it's my fault" and "I deserve all this for being a bastard and a jerk towards her". Even if I cry out blood, it still won't change the fact I've hurt her so much and that I'm worst than a bastard..more stupid than an idiot and much more useless and hopeless than anyone...

I'm lower than dirt... She's done so much to make me happy.. but why can't I do just that too... I've made her happy but.. I don't feel I'm doing it at the same level... oh no... I just received a few text messages... Zanzan... I'm sorry... but I have to leave for now...I am at lost and Im breaking down.. getting over something... Is not something I prefer.... I can never getting over her... thats the honest truth.. she made an impact in my life... so much.. I've remembered from the first time I know her til now...

Zanzan, I'll be leaving for now.. I'll be back later.. i hope..

posted at 9:44 AM


Tuesday, November 9, 2010

To my dearest wife,

Thank you for the wonderful and pleasant time today uh! I can't use the term, "I enjoyed myself", rather, I felt so loved, cared and welcome throughout the whole time we were spending time together uh! I really really appreciate it baby~ All the effort and time we spent together, I'll cherish them always and wish for more to come. >< I know I'm being greedy but is it wrong for me to keep wanting more and more of my gorgeous wife's time and care?

*Snuggles* I guess it's high time we both get some rest uh. You ought to be sleeping by now but that's alright. We had a long and exciting, not to mention loving day together~ Oyasumi baby~ <3 I love you~

With love,
Nazree, Butler~

posted at 10:41 PM


Thursday, November 4, 2010

Resting on your lap, I felt so comfortable~ Like a child sleeping and being caressed by his loved ones to sleep, you caress my hair so gently and watched over me with your sweet smile as I rest on your soft and comfortable lap. Looking at you smiling your sweetest smile each day when I first arrive, never fails to make my day better and great! Your scent attracts me like a bee on honey except that you've made it irresistible for me with you sweet smile and that something that just never fails to make skip a few beats and rushing towards you every time uh.

With each meeting and with each passing day, I become more and more greedy.... I keep wanting her more and more of her. A few hours of meeting is never enough for me and my dearest wife. But she always makes it worth while or should I say, she makes feel so loved and cared for.My devotion to her has never ceased to surprise myself. Whenever there's a chance to meet or that she needs me, I will always be there and at times, surprise her a little too XD

She's like my Goddess in life. If it was possible to make a certain religion of my own, I will definitely make her my Goddess and be extremely faithful to her ^^

posted at 11:02 PM