Friday, December 31, 2010

It has been two days that we've met but I'm already missing her so much and I can't get enough of her uh! *Sigh* It seems like I've grown more and more dependent on her as the days goes by. She even gave me an energy boost every time I meet her or being on the phone with her~! Honest. It's going to be our 1 year anniversary soon but.... I feel like I've done a lot more harm to her than any good... That is to my belief uh. I feel like I am a useless husband-to-be too... I have not even save enough to celebrate with her either...

It's going to be her first anniversary and the experience I'm giving is this... I'm sorry baby... I promise I'll make it up to you within this month uh! First thing first is gifts. Yup yup. Gotta add that to my to do list. ^3^

Baby... I'm really sorry for all the things that I've done to you...

I guess apology alone isn't enough to heal a wounded heart uh Zanzan? I guess not... It takes more that my actions alone to help. I need to be consistent too. It's going to be tough but for my love for her and respect, I can do it. What's more, I'm not doing this alone.

Ok la. I think I leave it till here uh. Till next time.

P.S. I forgot to mention bout the family that I saw together with her yesterday. We were walking back home and we notice this family waiting for the oncoming bus. The whole family stood up and the husband forgot to flag the bus. His expression combined with the motion of the wife's hair when the wind blew pass as the bus ignores them really cracked her up and nearly mine too! XD But the expression on the uncle made me not laugh because I can understand his emotions too. Imagine someone smiling even while his wife is angry at him for not flagging the bus and then heard someone laughing and his expression changes to the extreme sad look. XD I won't blame her for laughing. Even Kai agrees but it's bad uh to laugh too loud. XD

posted at 10:41 AM


Friday, December 24, 2010

Today, I met her once again and we was able to do one thing that we can hardly do together uh! Guess guess~ It's swimming! Hehe~ But at first, I met with her at her home first and boy, was I scared uh. I had to hide in the closet for a while because her mum's friend came over to spring clean her house. I even ran out half naked (top only) because it was warm for me and I rushed over and she wanted to feel me so much. I do too in fact.

We headed down to Khatib Swimming complex and the water was 1.0 meter deep. I was quite happy that it was deep enough for my height uh. Any deeper and I might lose my composure a little and especially without a goggle. Hehe. Oh yes! Before I forget, we applied tons of sun blocks and in the end, my legs were the darkest because I didn't apply that much on my legs. Now I look like Ju from my poly. XD

Her swimming skills have improved alot but there's still a long way to go to be a pro swimmer. Same goes to me uh! XD For me, there is no room, space or place that can really pull us apart and prevent us from being lovey dovey and intimate. I love the feeling of her's on mine~ Her curves, her smile, her sweet lips, the way she arch her body and leans on mine, the moment we spent just being in and out of the pool and not forgetting the intimate moment that we had while having lunch~ All this, I can never let them go. They are already burnt and marked into my memories uh.

But and good things must come to an end and ours came when we had to leave each other's side... It was extremely difficult for me... I felt like running back to her for a moment and hug her one last time by hiding behind her for a while but I couldn't... I'm sorry... I'll give it a shot next time when I have the chance to. I'll always remember her smile and the way she greets me every time~ Till then, bye bye~

posted at 11:32 PM


Thursday, December 23, 2010

Hehe~ Hello Zanzan~ Just dropping by once in a while to clear the dust uh! Hehe~ Just kidding.

^^ I'm smiling to myself currently uh~ Hehe~ It's been so long since I last met with her and today I finally got the chance to uh! Those lovely smile of her's that I've been missing so much to see and those soft cheeks of her's that I am dying to feel and touch~

I'm glad that our day turn out right and we really enjoyed ourselves. Holding on to her was one of my greatest moments ever and seeing her smile like that, nothing can defeat that uh or make my day even better~ We were mushy mushy most of the time and I had to buy us lunch at around 2.38 but it was difficult for me to even leave her side for too long uh... T3T I didn't take that long (I hope) and we soon had our lunch a few minutes later.

Being close to her wasn't, frankly speaking, wasn't enough for me. I wished that there were ways for me to get even more closer to her. Like melt with or on to her perhaps? XD But I really wanted us to be even more closer than how we already are. In the midst of everything, we kinda got a little intimate and I felt her on my skin. I'll never forget those moments baby~! Even as I sank onto her, her smiles really kept me captivated all this time. Even until now~ Hehe~

Her sweet scent is radiating from my hand. I'm smelling it from time to time~ It's the only thing that makes me feel closer to her uh~

Already, I guess we'll stop here uh. Hope to see you soon.

posted at 7:57 PM