Monday, January 3, 2011
Our one year anniversary finally came and I am thrilled by it even now! It's not just the fact the we lasted for a year already but also because we have endured all the problems and difficulties together and got through it all together. It makes me really happy to know that uh~! But I feel extremely bad. Because on our anniversary, I didn't get anything for her just yet or make a big or some sort of celebration to mark this special day... T3T She said it was alright and that seeing her on that special day means a lot to her but... but... I still feel low...
Not only that. I've made promises to her that I will return home by 11pm on that day but I broke that promise and returned home only at 2+am... I was under my mum strict rules of following her... and I made my baby waited for nothing... thats the worst part. I got her really angry... We never spoke on the phone for almost the whole morning and afternoon. She was too upset with me and I don't blame her... Imagine yourself in her position and you will understand her... To make things worst, some time in the late afternoon, she sms me to give her a call but I was bathing and by the time I got to my phone, I saw her angry message saying, 'Nevermind. Forget it.'
Guilt and grief strangled me when I saw that message... There was no excuse for me not to return that call... Eventhough she is partially alright now, I know that deep in her heart, she hates me for this reasons and many more... I don't even know how to properly make it up to her uh... honest. But that's no excuse either. I have to be responsible for my actions. I'm really sorry baby for hurting you... I'm really sorry...
Words of apology aside, I need to save up real hard to make it up to her. On my list are a few things I must get for her. One would be a decent celebration uh. I feel like finding a part time job every Saturday and Sunday. I feel very bad every time she sees something online or outside and that I can't buy anything much for her... I'l try my best to find a part time job that is flexible uh. In the mean time, please be patient uh bie!
Before I end here, I would like to ask for my forgiveness to my Goddess of love. I'm am truely for all the misdeeds that I had done and I know that I will repeat or make new ones and I hope you will forgive me when that happens and continue to guide my wrongs to rights. You are the reason that I am in love again. You gave me the support that I need and you gave me the kind of love that I ever wanted. I hope I'll be able to make you smile a little more often in months to come uh bie. I love you and Happy first anniversary~!
posted at 11:02 AM
