Sunday, February 22, 2009

Hello Zan. Just drop to see whether do you remember what is on for tomorrow. You remembered!? Oh thank you!! But in actual fact, I don't really look forward to this year's birthday of mine. Why? Well...let me put it this way. For the past birthdays of mine, I was...single in a way but last year, months after my birthday, God gave me the greatest and most wonderful gift ever to someone like me but I didn't treat His gift well enough sometimes...so this year's birthday I may not have that wonderful gift with me anymore...that's why I am not lookin forward to it. It hurts me thinkin back bout what I did all this time. I was so stupid at some point of life but I've realise that but maybe... just maybe...its too late...

I don't why but day by day I'm being hurt in the heart. Not by others but mainly by me. The thought of regrets, wishin things like this wouldn't hav happened, wished that I was much much much more clever last time. Wished that I didn't do such to hurt the person I truly love...

Talk bout wish, some times I do wish I was perfect. Perfect in every ways possible. Perfect in life, work, ability, studies, love and social life. I also wish that I was a Chinese. But thinkin back, if I was perfect in every aspects of life, that wouldn't be me anymore. All of my friends will not recognise me as a friend. My idiot side of me will be lost forever. Even my funny side! I can't effort to throw my idiotic and funny side of me. THis qualities of mine are what that makes people laugh when I react to things that I do or say. It's what othres love bout me. Bout the other wish? Well that's a secret. Bout my birthday wish? If I tell you it will not come true now will it? Hehe... I wish that God will pardon me of my actions and give me a chance to bring joy to her once again and also for God to bring us both closer, happiness and love to us.

posted at 4:11 PM