Heloo. I met with yet another bee this evenin. Haish... I don't know wad's goin on recently but I keep on seein this flyin insects around. It's scary!!
Let's see... what should I talk bout today? Hmm... Oh yes! Tomorrow and the day after that is a special day! It's a 6th and a 7th!! Tomorrow is 6 of May and on this day is the day that the three combos came to know each other. Me, lalah and Chuan. But it's kinda saddenin that one of them can't make it already. Now I am left with askin lalah out but I doubt that he can make it too. School schedule wise. Other poly and ITE have the same kind of schedule. A time table that isn't fix. So it is much more difficult for me to meet the rest but I'll be ok with that. Not being able to meet them isn't as a bad as not being able to meet adsafgdgsffa... CHEEP CHEEP!! How many times must I tell you not to jump on other people's keyboard?! Now apologise!
Sorry bout that. This little fur ball doesn't really know how to sit still. Back to the topic. *Ahem ahem* Yea. So I guess I'll be alone again since my parents are goin out too. I'm seriously leadin a boring life right now. What's on the 7th? Well... let's just say it a day of sweet memories or day of dreams. While I was on the bus headin home, I saw one of the most wonderful thing that can happen inside a bus. There is this Japanese lady carryin two of her children and sittin on the front seats. Lookin at the family seems to cheer me up and the whole bus atmosphere seems more cheerful too! But as I was lookin that the lady who was playin with her youngest child, I began to tear. I think the lady saw it too but I just smiled back instead. Lucky she smiled back too instead of panickin.
I now why I teared at that time but it is difficult to put it into words. It's not because I am sad or overjoyed. It's like the feelin between the lady and her child that made me tear. It's a wonderful feeling. Hehe... Talk bout seein things, I saw a GTR-34 zoom pass me as I was waitin at my school traffic light. It was a white skyline. A sight to behold indeed but as beautiful as an angel though! Hehe...
I wonder if I'm being to hard on her currently. I wanted to talk to her but I have this feeling of scared. At times I even stammer when I am talkin to her. Patience is the only thing I can do. I am not just sittin and waitin only. I am also givin both of us time. For me, I'm givin myself time because I want to be a better person if I can have another opportunity. I don't wan to hurt her again and I can say I am on the road to succeed but I don't think I am ready yet. I would like to thank some of my group who are always givin me their support. I hope I will not turn you guys down! All I can say is that they wants me to continue and wait and I can see they are glad to hear that when I told them that I will still harbour this feelin for her and wait. Maybe it's because they still know that I am still myself or they believe that things will get better after some time. I hope so too guys! (I hope I am not puttin any pressure on anyone. If so, place do tell me)
There are some that takes me as an example too. I hope I won't disappoint you guys. I'll help in anyway I can. Oh! I also made a pact with a close friend of mine too. A promise that we will remain patient and guide each other through as we are both in this together though the person we feel for is a different person of course. Good luck! I see end here. It's gettin late plus my class starts at 8 later on. See ya!
