At times, things do happen too fast don't they? Haha... It's alright ^^ Just ignore what I just mention please~ Hehe...
I really cannot tahan this pain already man... The pain is startin to become more and more unbearable... sheesh... and it still on the early side. Damn... And some what, I do feel like blacking out but I can't afford that coz there is noone at home and don't want to trouble anyone either. Like no point la tryin to help an idiot like me ^^
Some times I wonder... why must I be like the current person I am right now. I know I am good at heart wise but other than that, I'm as bad as everyone else. For example, no more how good I am, due to who I am, everyone thinks lowly of me and that I am like a typical Mat out there. I've tried to be the nice boy, walk like a soft guy and even watch what I say and behave but still, I'm being group under that section...
I won't blame anyone if they think it that way ^^ really really. Just that I have to bear with this a little longer. That's all... How I wish I was more fair... like my chinese friends, better in terms of looks like Syed, Yat and Sai... and much much more... I only one good thing in me and that is my heart alone. I'm kind and helpful but... is that really enough Zanzan? But I shouldn't be sayin such to you coz you are some what in a worst state because you are always alone in the cyberspace...
Zanzan... I've been tearing for quite a long time now. Both because of this extreme pain in my head and kind of the shock that my heart felt but I'll be alright ^^ I don't wanna stress anyone plus I don't want to make any matter worst due to my own fault. Uhuh. I think I want to stop taking my meds too because it's like not working after a while so yea.
But after all this, I hope I can still laugh as the I once was went my time comes. So for now, I shall be that person like a guardian. A promise is a promise so I'll be here for you, always. Until the time comes whereby you no longer need me or there is osmeone else in your hearts and minds.
