Tuesday, May 17, 2011
I just failed again... miserably... I've made her upset once again... I broke her heart by stabbing her with my tone, the way I spoke to her just a couple of minutes ago... I broke my own wife's heart.... What kind of a man am I?! Incapable of even healing her wounds that I HAD CAUSED and making her feel like putting down the phone at any moment... please don't view her as a bad person... the evil one and bastard of all is this jerk... me... I had tainted my Goddess heart with my evil prayers... the thought of her still being angry with me by the next morning is already killing me!!
I still do want to hear her cheerful voice and smiles... I didn't mean to take away her highness joy and loving side and replacing them with sorrow and anguish.... I'm a failed husband.... I'm a failure.... I"M REALLY SORRY BABY!!! I know it will be hard for you to forgive my wrong doings and I know you have turned sour towards me.... A thousand apology, a million warm hugs and a million words of comfort can't guarantee that I will be able to heal her and fix her shattered heart.
Hundreds hours of romance, joy, tears and laughter that we had created and remembered were shattered and lost due to my own selfish behaviour... I am such a fucker... I've failed my princess and also everyone... I just don't know how to face her once again.... I'm really sorry baby... I promise it won't happen again. I don't want to lose you ever uh!!! I may be stupid, slow and ignorant but I want to learn to be better!! I want to be with you and cherishing you everyday!! I hope it's still possible for me. I didn't mean to hurt you.....
posted at 12:16 AM
